orange,
what is your take on the symbolism of the triangle on the coin? You
realize that its very occultic? Do you think Bill W. or Frank Buchman
were Freemasons?
curious,
Hi JT,
I suspect that Bill Wilson was just being a copycat.
He and Dr. Bob were (or had been) members of the Oxford Group,
which was very occult and superstitious, so Bill
wanted a symbol for A.A. that looked mystical. So what did he borrow from?
The pyramid and eye in a circle on the dollar bill.
I've been asked several times
(like
here),
if Bill was a Mason, and I haven't seen even a shred of evidence,
or hint, that he was. And nobody has sent anything in.
Frank Buchman is another question. I haven't thought about that before.
I also doubt it, but it bears checking out. I can see how membership
in a secret white boys' society could have
helped him in networking with millionaires.
But then again, Frank may have considered himself above that kind of thing. He wouldn't
go join somebody else's organization; he would demand that they come and
join his society, where he was the leader.
I don't think that Frank Buchman's narcissistic ego could have long tolerated being
a low-ranking member of somebody else's organization.
Have a good day.
== Orange
P.S.: Also see this letter. It turns out that Thomas Jefferson had something to do with the pyramid with the eye — it was a symbol of reason, not an occult symbol.
Hello!
My name is Kimberly E. and I'm sorry to bug you but I was browsing
around for some pages with sober living and addiction information that
I can use in a program I'm helping out with when I came across your page
Also in case you are interested I found this other page that I thought
you or your visitors may be interested in Thanks for reading my email!
Cheers!
Hi Kimberly,
Thanks for the link. That is an extensive list of links to studies.
Good stuff. More grist for the mill. And more homework....
Have a good day.
== Orange
Hello, I just found your website as I was coming back from an AA meeting where we discussed Step 6, and I was trying to figure out what Defects of Character were, so I searched Google for "Defects of Character". I read your pages much like a child who finds a banned book might, reading hesitantly at first, worried that I was fooling myself and looking for an excuse to not "work my steps". I've been sober now for almost a year and find I am happy to be free from alcohol and marijuana. I read your pages more and more enthusiastically at the end and I am grateful to you for having published them on the Web. It is very refreshing to see the facts about AA and its founders. Though I agree with what you've disclosed, I don't plan on using this as an excuse to undo all the good that going to AA meetings has done for me over the past several months, but I will definitely consider what you have posted. I agree with much of what you've written and found myself laughing at times (you have a good sense of humour). I thank you for maintaining this website and hope this message finds you in good health and in good spirits. Paul J. B.
Hi Paul,
Thanks for the thanks and the compliments.
I especially liked the line about,
"I don't plan on using this as an excuse to undo all the good..."
[that you have done].
I agree totally. I occasionally say that "I am abstaining from both alcohol and
A.A."
The fact that A.A. may be screwed up is no reason for us to wreck our health.
A.A. is completely irrelevant when I consider the fact that alcohol is poisonous
to me, and I'm so much better off without it.
And of course the same goes for tobacco and other drugs, too.
Have a good day, and a good life.
== Orange
This is seven of the "Family of 9" goslings. The other couple of parents, the parents of the two (or three) other goslings, have gone off with 2 of their offspring somewhere else this day. This particular photo makes it look like the split in the "Family of 9" is 7+2 — that is, one family has 7 goslings, and the other couple has 2. [The story of Carmen continues here.]
Dear Agent Orange, I am a former heroin addict and general substance abuser. Back when I was using, I got high every single day on anything I could get high on. When it was in full swing, my heroin habit topped a hundred dollars a day (and that was in 1983 dollars). I never went into rehab, detox, or a 12-step program. I never even tried methadone. After years of shooting dope, I just got tired of it and stopped. It's been almost 20 years now since I used heroin, or any other drug stronger than marijuana. Yes, I still smoke pot... but only on rare, isolated occasions. I also drink beer and whiskey, but more for the taste than anything else. I insist on good microbrews and single-malt scotches from Scotland (my favorite is Laphroaig) and turn my nose up at swill like Budweiser, Miller, Coors, etc. even if it's free. It's entirely typical of me to go without a drink for a month or two at a time, then have one or at most two pints of some interesting microbrew, and if I'm really celebrating, maybe sip on a shot of good scotch for half an hour to forty-five minutes, savoring the taste. The last time I got drunk was almost six years ago, and that was a special occasion. I remember at the time thinking how odd it was that I was drunk, since it was the first time in years. Recently an old friend took me to a 12-step meeting, and I was appalled at what went on there. I'm only a neophyte at the AA-bashing business, so there won't be any surprises here for an old hand like yourself, but I thought you might enjoy the write-up I did of my visit to the strange unreal world of 12-step. Here's what I wrote:
Not long ago, I joined Facebook, and old friends from the L.A. and San Francisco punk rock scene started coming out of the woodwork. People I hadn't heard from in years or decades have been turning out in droves. It was wonderful! But then I discovered that about 85% of them are now 12-steppers. I'm shocked, appalled, incensed, and all fired up to do something about it. My wife and I are getting ready to move to Michigan, and I have some professional videographer friends there who have agreed to help me make a documentary about AA. It was in the course of doing some research for this project that I found your website. What an amazingly comprehensive mountain of data you have put together! I've been reading your stuff at every available moment for most of a week now, and I would love to use your site as source material, if you don't object. Naturally I will also be looking elsewhere for source material, and plan on filming interviews with medical professionals, addicts, former addicts, etc. as well as surreptitiously making audio recordings of 12-step meetings. I don't know if my documentary will go anywhere, but I have to try. It breaks my heart and inflames my mind that so many of my old friends have been suckered into this shitty cult, and I have to do what I can. In my wildest dreams, I manage to make a film that deprograms thousands of AA victims, and convinces the State and the Feds to stop ordering people into the cult. Eh, in reality I'll be lucky if a hundred people see the damned thing, but I'm going to make it anyway. Cheers, M OTIS B.
Hello Otis,
Thanks for the letter. All I can say is, "Right on. You've got it. You understand,
and know everything you need to know."
Oh, and congratulations on breaking free of your addictions.
Twenty years off of smack, yes, that's good.
And this is the heart of the matter:
And these two lines,
So A.A. destroys their self-confidence and self-respect, and makes them afraid of having any.
And I know that
those constant put-downs
really are harmful to a lot of people.
By the way, if we aren't supposed to take pride in our sobriety, why do A.A. members
proudly walk to the front of the room to accept another sobriety coin, while the
crowd claps and cheers for them, and congratulates them for their hard work?
But then it's a major sin if you are proud of your accomplishment:
That back-and-forth "build them up, then put them down" routine
is called "battering", and it's just like wife-battering:
A.A. does the same thing: First you are wonderful because you are sober,
and then you are disgusting because you are proud and selfish and self-seeking.
Then you are wonderful because you are working a strong program, and then
you are despicable because you have done so many wrong things, and you have
so many moral shortcomings and defects of character. Then you are lovable because you are
one of us, "The Friends of Bill"; and then you are a social pariah
because you "took your will back", and "tried to do it your own way."
And it isn't just A.A. that does that battering routine. Steven Hassan wrote about how
Rev. Sun Myung Moon (leader of the Unification Church, i.e.,
"the Moonies") did it to him.
Moon would play the role of the charismatic charmer,
lavishly praising his followers in public, honoring them for all of
their hard and faithful work, and then Moon would take them to his
palatial estate, where he would switch personalities, and play the
role of judge and executioner, attacking and denouncing those same
followers for not working hard enough.
And this:
You asked:
And about the success rate:
And this is one of the most important, really big questions:
And yet other judges in small traffic courts or drug courts ignore that
ruling, and either sentence people to A.A. meetings, or to
"treatment programs" that send the clients to A.A. meetings.
Good luck on your video. I'm also working on one for YouTube too, but it's about
the orphaned gosling Carmen.
It has nothing to do with alcoholism or drug addiction;
it's just a sweet story that I want to tell.
But then again, I think that is the real recovery process: You don't
spend the rest of your life talking about how miserable you were while
you were drinking or drugging, and become addicted to, or obsessed with, meetings
and cult religion practices
— you just get on with your life, and go do something better.
Maybe I'll get into some recovery-oriented videos after I get the hang of movie-making
with the goslings.
Have a good day, and a good life.
== Orange
P.S.: I forgot to say that of course you may use my web site as a source. Have at it, and make a good video. And have a good day too.
Hi Orange, thanks so much for the website and the truth about this propaganda that has been sewn into the social fabric of the mainstream by AA and the recovery/treatment industry. I will write again, but this first letter is about why I quit AA. First off, I admit that I have trouble committing to and finishing alot of things (college, the Navy, AA).... but I did do the best I could with AA. I got a sponsor, did the steps as best I could and shared at meetings... sometimes. Before I read the Orange Papers I was not aware of how dangerous AA thinking (or not thinking) could be. The thing that really stuck out for me was the information about the Synanon games and the cult that used them, and their psychopathic leader. What is really very disturbing is that they use that very method at the main rehab center here on O'ahu. I've seen them do this while I was in there (17 days, left against 'medical advice')... and no one questioned it. Everyone seemed to believe that it had therapeutic value. I thought it was strange, bizarre mind games, and dreaded the idea of being put in the hot seat. One woman in the outpatient program I currently attend who went to that rehab for help, had her counselor tell her "you're a drug addict, you're a thief, and a liar". Then this woman (the client) said that that was good for her and what she needed to hear. The same woman said that her sponsor grilled her for hours on her 4th step and asked her 33 questions for each person she "harmed" on her 5th step. I don't think it was necessary for her to be interrogated like a criminal suspect. Anyway, back to me. After my last "relapse", my sponsor's sponsor (grand sponsor) suggested I do 2 things. One was to write a farewell letter to alcohol (not really a bad idea), and the other was to write down my thoughts that preceded my last binge (another good idea, he was much more intelligent than most of the people I've met in AA). Well, I did both, but what I noticed about the 2nd exercise was that my first thoughts surrounding my last binge were that I was sick and tired of going to and sitting through AA meetings. Of course any AAer would say "there's the problem, you gave up on the program". I suppose that if a person busies themselves with meetings and service work and sponsoring, that could keep them sober, but I would think that they would have to buy into the whole philosophy of the program to stay motivated and I don't see how anyone can. When we were children did we not learn about right and wrong, good and evil, and religion? The 5th step seems Catholic in nature, and for most non-Catholics (at least me anyway) seems bizarre and unnecessary. But I did it, as I was supposed to, and desperately wanted to lose the obsession, or desire, for alcohol. Everyone seemed to think AA had (or was) the answer. The steps seem to be geared toward the morally inept, and spiritually bankrupt (by the way my former sponsor and his sponsor were both atheists that used AA itself as their higher power) and egotists. This is not a good way to view yourself if part of the reason for your heavy drinking was low self-esteem (as it was for me). Not knowing the cult origins of AA, and not feeling good about myself anyway, however, the steps seemed relatively harmless and had this great reputation as a spiritual, moral support group program. That's what everyone seems to think. I was not willing however to go into AA's 3 unwritten steps which sound more like membership rules if you go to enough meetings. Aside from speakers who go up and praise the program while at the same time talking about how screwed up they are even though they're sober, or the ones who just can't shut up about how great they are now that they're in AA, you hear over and over and over again... 1. Get a sponsor, stay in touch with them, and if they become unavailable (or God forbid get a life), fire them and get a new one. Later, you must sponsor a newcomer (the only way to keep it is to give it away). 2. Get into service and commit to your obligation at your Home Group (if your job and your family couldn't keep you sober, this will surely do the trick). 3. Share at meetings (talk about your personal life in front of a group of strangers), go up and tell your life story (not the whole thing, just the part about your alcohol/drug abuse and how AA saved your life)... and sing the praises of this wonderful 'fellowship'. The only thing I can say in favor of AA is that if you get too lonely and need to be around people who aren't drinking/using they're available, but other than that... that's it! Don't wait for a miracle that is not going to happen. That's my story (part of it anyway).. Thanks again Orange, and keep up the great work. Ted
Hi Ted,
Thanks for the letter and the compliments.
The first thing that caught my eye was the mention of Synanon
games. Synanon — the insane brainchild of Chuck Dederich — is the
root of all of the "confrontational therapy" and
"attack therapy" techniques and organizations, and it is still quite popular,
as you noticed at your local "treatment center",
in spite of the fact that it does not work and produces bad results.
Heck, Chuck Dederich and his commune degenerated
into a bunch of crazies, and Dederich's lieutenants
went to prison for attempted murder of critics and defectors, and Dederich avoided
prison only by copping a plea and giving up leadership of Synanon.
So much for the wonderful mental health produced by Synanon Games and confrontational
therapy.
Nevertheless, Synanon was the model for a whole crop of child and grandchild
programs:
The Seed,
Straight, Inc.,
Kids of New Jersey,
Delancy Street,
Drug Free America Foundation,
Daytop,
Phoenix House, Amity, and more.
Right off the top of my head, I know that half of them, The Seed, Straight,
Kids of New Jersey, and Drug Free America Foundation were guilty
of vicious child abuse. That's why they don't exist any more.
They were shut down amid criminal investigations and lawsuits.
But other descendants have taken their places.
The professions of psychology and psychiatry must be in very sick shape if shams
and quackery like Synanon Games and "confrontational therapy"
that are the best that they can recommend for drug and alcohol problems.
I also agree with the rest of your letter. "The Three Other Steps" are true.
Funny how cults' programs seem to always have some more duties that aren't
written down, or mentioned beforehand.
That's Progressive Commitments,
another standard cult characteristic.
The third one, "Share at Meetings", reminds me of the
Self-Sell
propaganda technique. You are urged to speak, and an unspoken assumption
is that you will say things that are acceptable to the group. You'd better,
if you want their approving smiles rather than hard frowns... So you
scrounge through your mind trying to find something positive to say
about A.A. and the program and the great progress you are making...
The idea is, that you will start to believe that stuff. You will sell yourself
on the idea.
Make them say it enough times, and they will start to believe it. That's
Use of the Cognitive Dissonance Technique.
A wacky cult called "Nichiren Shoshu Buddhism" that I was
briefly trying out in the seventies used the same technique. At Sunday
morning meetings, newcomers were urged to get up in front of the whole congregation
and declare what
wonderful things have come to them, and which of their wishes were
granted, by chanting "Nam-myoho-renge-kyo" at a printed scroll.
Absurd as it may sound, say it enough times, and you will start to believe it.
They did.
Oh, and I can think of one other "unwritten rule" of A.A.:
"You can't criticize The Program."
Have a good day.
== Orange
I would love to talk on the phone with you. Anybody can write what they want in this country and I admire you for doing what you feel is right I don't know about those emails, that you say "got sent to you." LOL I have been sober in Alcoholics Anonymous since July 15, 1979. My name is Jim F. My Home Phone is: xxx-xxx-xxxx My Cell Phone is: xxx-xxx-xxxx Toll Free USA: xxx-xxx-xxxx I don't think you would have the nerve to call me. Like any alcoholic without recovery, we can make a lot of noise, but no real action. Nothing will ever hurt AA, but what comes from within. Bill Wilson I wish you the very best. Jim F.
Hi Jim,
Congratulations on your years of sobriety.
Well, I'm not going to be making a phone call to you, because, as I explained
here,
Qwest pulled the plug on my phone line for being a nice guy and
letting poor neighbors piggy-back on my DSL line, so I don't have a phone any more.
I have thought about getting another one, but I found that I usually
make only one phone
call a month (to the Veterans' Administration to renew my medications prescriptions),
so it isn't cost effective to pay $30 or $40 per month to make one phone call.
Right now I am saving $80 per month by not paying Qwest for phone service and
Internet access.
I'm looking at other non-phone methods of Internet access, like Clear, which
uses "WiMax" (microwave radio) technology. Getting one where the USB microwave
transceiver gizmo has a device driver that works on Linux is the challenge.
I do not conduct private, off-line debates.
I have barely enough time to keep up with answering my email, and have no time
to waste on a pointless back-and-forth argument that no one else will see or hear.
The online debates can either inform the public, or at least
entertain them. If you have something to say, then write it, and I'll print it.
Whether you believe it or not, the letters that I post are all real — real letters
that I really received from real people. Like Ann Landers wrote when somebody accused
her of making up letters, I couldn't possibly make that stuff up.
My imagination isn't that good.
People are so wacky and crazy and creative and different, with such a wide range of
experiences and opinions, my imagination just cannot keep up with reality.
Have a good day.
== Orange
Dear sir: I read that Buchman met H G Wells and Arthur Balfour at the conference in 1921 suggesting that this has a profound effect on the purposes of MRA. Do you have any information on this? I was part of MRA for many years beginning at Buchman's funeral in Allentown in '61. Thanks, Tom
Hi Tom,
Now that's a good historical trivia question. I don't know about that.
I'll have to see what I can find out. Any readers have any idea?
Have a good day.
== Orange
Hey Orange, Given the "criteria" of the job description of a "CDRP" at KAISER PERMANENTE no less, perhaps you could e-mail them a "synopsis" of your site, and see if maybe this HMO won't get into the 21st Century already. Notice a "small" bias here? And this is a MEDICALLY BASED HMO??? Scary, John McC., M-RAS. NCAC-I
Hi again, John,
Yes, that is scary, and also just plain old frustrating. The year is 2009,
and a major "health care" company still uses the lying propaganda of
a cult religion, rather than valid clinical trials, to decide medical issues
like the appropriate treatment of a life-threatening condition.
Pathetic.
REQUIRED: "Knowledge of Disease model; 12-Step programs."
NOT REQUIRED: Knowledge of Rational Emotive Behavior Therapy,
Rational Behavioral Therapy,
Addictive Voice Recognition Therapy, or Self-Management and Recovery Training, or
anything else that actually works.
So I guess I'll have to write something.
Have a good day.
== Orange
Orange, I'm loving the new letters you've posted. Thank you for keeping this site going. It's a safe & sane haven for people seeking recovery help. Also, I follow the story of Carmen with great interest, and I love your beautiful photographs of her and her fine feathered friends. In my last letter I recounted my interaction with the CARF folks — the ones who don't give a damn about whether the facilities they approve actually have any success jamming the 12 step program down peoples' throats. My company (Fortune 500) donates a sizable amount of money to the same halfway house I've been scrutinizing, which is the same halfway house I got sentenced to back in the '90's and the same one which makes its residents work for free on weekends restoring houses to turn into extended treatment facilities (3/4 houses — does it never end? Once these places get their hands on you they won't let you go for 1, 2 even 3 years.) I found out one of my company's upper managers is the president of this halfway house's board, so I decided to send her an e-mail outlining my concerns about them shoving ineffective and dangerous cult "treatment" on its hapless residents. I cited as much data as I could and kept the e-mail unemotional (for fear of being labeled a nut.) I concluded by asking that our company refrain from giving monetary support to the place as long as they employ the 12 step method. Here's the answer I got:
"As you are aware, many many treatment facilities adopt this approach to sobriety and it works for many many people. I have no intention of resigning from the board or advising (company name) to discontinue supporting this program." (For the record I never asked her to resign.) Not a big surprise. So the next thing I did (and I should've done this first) was to find out who at my company is in charge of doling out money to worthy charities and causes. I sent this person an e-mail too, outlining the same facts and studies, including information about AA's side effects, like increased binge drinking and how the death rate increases. A day later I got an e-mail back from the legal department (!) from one of our attorneys asking if I would be willing to meet with him to discuss the matter further. I agreed so we set up a meeting a week hence. The next day the head of my department calls me into his office and says to me, "I understand you have some concerns about how (company name) disperses donations. Well, I would advise you to have your facts in order." I said, yeah, I got my facts straight and plenty of them. But later as I sat at my desk I started freaking out. How did he know about this so soon? Who told him? Was this some kind of veiled warning I should heed? But it was too late — I set this thing in motion and now I had to see it through. So with some trepidation I met with the attorney. I have to tell you the meeting went very well. He actually thanked me for raising the issue. The very first thing he wanted to know was whether criminal activities were taking place at this halfway house. I said I wasn't sure, so I couldn't give him a definitive answer. Our company's reputation is extremely solid and valuable so he needed to know if this was something we had to urgently disengage ourselves from. I explained my concerns and gave him copies of studies and statistics, including the stats from the halfway house itself where it claimed a 90+% success rate. Rhetorically I asked him how it was possible that out of 1400 men who entered the program, they could base their success rate on only 43 survey responses — and "self-survey" responses to boot, which are notoriously unreliable. He nodded thoughtfully and asked a few questions. He told me he would raise the issue in a board meeting this fall. He then mentioned something really interesting which makes a lot of sense and which is probably the main reason why companies just can't seem to stop supporting places like this. He noted that although the numbers I presented concerning AA's lack of success may be true, companies support programs like this with money and "personal assets" (people) because it looks and feels good both to the company to the local communities. It's the same old bind: corporations and individuals simply don't want to believe that they have been duped all these years. There is a tragic irony that the shear size and breadth of the 12-step falsehood is the very thing keeps people from believing that it's all a lie. It's the craziest and most twisted of paradoxes. In addition, there's a feel-good by-product to be gained by giving support which is extremely hard to disabuse people from. After all, it sure feels so good to be noble and helpful. No matter what the facts are, people want to feel like they're doing something good. Like I said, the lawyer told me he would certainly raise these issues at the next meeting. I think he sees my point. He also said that though my company might not stop donating money to the place, it could very well start asking for more accountability from it, beginning with an independent study of its graduates to obtain a more accurate picture its success rate. I would be happy with that result. Anyway, keep on truckin'. Bill
Hi again, Bill,
Thank you for your efforts. Every little bit helps. It is both amazing and
appalling how the hoax continues because the hoax has continued for so long.
"Everybody knows it works," just like how
everybody knew that the world was flat.
Hopefully that will change.
Have a good day.
== Orange
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